What are you gonna do?

K, I have a young, impressionable son, and more often than not, when I go shopping, he goes with me. Now, you might be going, 'so what?' I'll tell you what!!!
There are some sales people out there who are really great and helpful and all that good stuff....... whatever!! Those are not the ones I am talking about, I'm talking bout the ones that follow you, ask if you need help, yeah, those ones!!! Well, I need help, yes, could you show me a desk that is not too big since it is going into a mid sized room and I don't want it to overwhelm the room. Oh, ok, I'll be right back.

So, I find a desk on my own because she does not come back for another 10 minutes and I could not be bothered to go and find her ass. She does come back, however, and asks me again if I need help!!!! Hello, your attention span cannot be worse than a two year old's....can it? I mean I am THE ONLY black woman in here with a black son and you offered to help me a sceond ago!! Inwardly I am calling her all sorts of names (see where I am going with this?) No? Go back to my opening statement!!! How can I tell him to be polite when I am acting the fool in the store, even though that woman deserved to have me do so.

Anyway. I get the ticket, go to pay for the desk, and, yeah, my new best friend is standing behind the counter! What the heck is this? the twilight zone? Punked?
Give her the ticket, smile and inwardly pray that she will get it right this time. Everything is going ahead smoothly, give her my address, credit card number, then wait while she types in .... I don't know what the heck she was typing. I'm mentally moving things around tha back of my suv to make space for the box.

"Oh, this is delivery only in this store, Ma am. They do have them in the Lynwood store though, if you would rather do that."
I'm quiet, because I KNOW she is not talking to me right now.
"Maam, do you want us to deliver it on the 12th? You will have to pay an extra $20.00 though"
No, Bitch, I need the desk today. I could have ordered it online if I wanted to wait for it. I told you that!!!!!! Of course I couldn't say it out loud....Robbie, remember? So I politely decline, ask for my credit card and driver's license back and ask her to please erase my information. She does, then has the nerve to ask if there's anything else she could do for me. Huh? I do not even want you to look at me, freak! Just shut up and go and find someone else to NOT help!

So, I'm traumatized and I STILL don't have a desk!

Maybe I'll try again tomorrow!! Unless it keeps snowing.......

Getting older

So, another birthday is here..............
I remember when I loved the thought of getting older and getting all those gifts and being the center of everyone's world for that one special day. Yeah, well I still love all that (the getting older bit, not so much) :-) but the gifts are still the biggest draw for me lol. I do have to say though, that the body is slowly is starting to break down.

I was brushing my hair and help! found gray hair on the brush but I am going to wear the gray hair proudly.......kinda. Also, the joints are not quite as supple as they were a few years ago, eyes don't see as well and staying up all night? Only in my dreams!

I feel wiser though, although that might be an illusion. I can do and say what I like without worrying about what anyone else thinks (besides the people I love, of course!) and I am ticking things off my life to-do list.

I have to send some love to my niece, Keisha, who turned fifteen yesterday. Happy Birthday, my darling. I love you too too much.

Fifteen!!!! Nice age, don't think I would not go back to fifteen....... now 20!!! Hmmm?!

So, to recap, older, gray hair, aching joints and stuff!! I'm loving and embracing it all! And the gifts and attention, what's not to love? As long as I can still do the dutty wine, right?

Summer is coming up. So? So I am FAT right now! I need to get into my summer clothes (can’t be hiding behind those sweats now, can I?) I know that everyone is talking about the skinny models, anorexia yada yada yada. I get it! We are sending bad messages to our kids and all that. Yeah, but I’m still fat!!!!

It seems as if everyone gets upset when someone talks about someone else being fat but the funny thing is that that same person will tell someone else that they “look GREAT!! Did you lose some weight?” So, which is it? Skinny is great, or fat is ok? I bet you anything that all those women who talk about being happy with their bodies would just die in ecstasy if they woke up 20 or 30 pounds lighter…..I know for sure that I would!!! Ay, just keeping it real.

So anyway, back to me, I have started working out again. Yeah, running, strength training and all that good stuff. I know it’s good for me, just wish someone would tell that to my aching body!!

My Night Out!

Yeah, yeah, it's been a while. I know! But it's pointless for me to write just for the sake of writing, n'est pas? Anyhoo, I got to go to a concert last night!! Lots of people go to concerts all the time, right? Right! What you don't understand is the fact that between going to my son's school to volunteer, PTA meetings, being class mom, going on school field trips AND meeting with stylists and clients for my business, all I want to do after 6.00 pm is sit in my recliner, read a book, (preferably a harlequin romance novel that has the same plot as the previous 150 others I’ve read before…….so that I don’t have to think) and doze. That’s what I wish I could do but is unfortunately not how it happens. There’s dinner to be sorted, homework to be supervised and after dinner, dirty dishes….fun, huh?

Anyway, my sister friend knows that I really like reggae music a WHOLE lot and she bought me a couple of tickets to go this concert. I do have to say, though, that I was kinda feeling like just staying home because I was so tired, but Rob convinced me it would be good for me to get out and have some fun. So I went. And I loved every minute of it!!!!

Now here’s the reason for the title of this blog. I am not very tall, and I did not want to be standing behind a bunch of tall guys who were jumping up and down in excitement so I started looking around for a better spot. I spotted some people upstairs who were sitting around some tables. Sitting! At a reggae concert! So I grabbed my friends and led them upstairs. I could not understand why more people were not going up there and kept expecting one of the security okes to stop us and tell us that only some sort of V.I.Ps were allowed to be up there. Didn’t happen, so I kept going and found a spot in front of the relaxing people and started dancing and singing. Needless to say, they were not happy, but our tickets had cost exactly what theirs had and as such, we had the right to stand in any free spot we wanted to. They were more than welcome to stand up and watch the Marley boys on stage…..they did stand up. So, here’s tired me in 3inch boots, jumping up and down for all I was worth!!! I was singing along because I knew every single song!! Did I say singing? I was YELLING. I could feel my ankles swelling and my throat closing up, but none of that was going to stop me.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew that I would be paying for what I was putting my body through but I told myself I would worry about it later. Throughout all this, my friend, Jose, was steadily buying Heinekens and I was unconsciously drinking them. NOT a very good combo for someone who has a glass of wine every now and then. Show’s over and we still want to party, so my other friend, Euwy, who is Jamaican was going around asking where the after party was, but the rest of us wanted to just go and dance. We eventually found a Reggae club/restaurant place in downtown Seattle, they were playing nice reggae music and selling beer! Perfect place for us. I danced to every single song until the lights came on and they told everyone to leave.

Saturday morning. NEED GATORADE!! My head is pounding, my stomach feels like a bus is moving in there and I am asking myself why. Why did I do it? Would I do it again next year? Undoubtedly!! I will just make sure I am wearing flat shoes and I am drinking water all night…….well, maybe ONE Heinie, or two, or at the absolute most, five.

Who am I?

Hey everyone! So glad you were curious enough to come to my page.
I am really just a very simple person who loves life and loves people. I have a beautiful son and I think he is a huge blessing!! He has autism and is not able to make friends easily. It makes me sad that I can't make everything perfect for him, but he is a happy, affectionate boy and I feel really blessed that God thought me equipped enough to take care of him and guide him through life!!

I love to read and write. Now if you are expecting deep thoughts and all that good stuff, I sometimes have some of that too:-), just not all the time!

I am just going to share my journey through life, good and bad and all the in betweens (when I remember) and I hope that you guys will feel free to send me comments, whether you agree with me or not. Obviously I can't expect everyone to think like me or agree with me, but I would ask that you be respectful when you share your opinions.

My new kitchen

Who knew that I could actually figure out this painting thang?!